The sketches look good. The translation is poor. I love the blues and greens planned. But now its like I want to revert to the simple pinwheel quilt that I though I would make. Copping out of every urge to push and make unique, catching that unique bird. I do this with fabric so much it isn't funny. The first design is more complicated than this and many more pieces. Maybe I just need to make a simple quilt instead of trying to be an artist. Who said I had to succeed at every turn, or even have it feel appealing. ugly art exists, but I do not need to be that rare bird. I want to be a unique one.
I'm ok. just trying to muster courage to finish it out by making the planned run and designing more rows to interchange and complete. I got encouragement as I was trying to see the potential in the block too early. The sketch was not even complete. I have no idea where it could go. That is not completely true, I have some resources in previous sketches. When the rows stack and meld, there will be subsequent patterns and other play I imagine, which may rescue my ugly block syndrome for now. Looking forward to braving through again tomorrow. It's settled. Ugly or not, I'm going through with it and all my extra pieces to boot. Calculating, I have enough pieces for roughly three King sized quilts. Not OCD, incorrect measurements and poor planning lead to deep water. All recycled and second hand materials. All will have a good home: into the shop, donation or friends.